Day 260: Facing my Demons, Sparking Joy

Well, I just wrote a whiz-bang blog post for today and then accidentally deleted it. So here I am back again. Determined to write something to commemorate my milestone of life without the booze for 260 whole days.

This is big news to me.

I used to drink often. And maybe sometimes (okay, a lot of times) I drank too much.

One day, many years ago, a little voice in my ear said to me, “Stop drinking and your life will get better.” But I didn’t want to stop because most of my socializing and my friends revolved around imbibing. And I loved the escape of the buzz.

However, that pesky voice never stopped whispering year after year. There came a point that the whisper became a persistent shout. It took me over and I wanted to see if that dang voice had any merit to it.

Fast forward to today. I could write volumes about how my life has changed for the better now that booze is no longer in the picture.

Here’s what I now know:

  • Not drinking has allowed me to excavate deep-seeded, negative, limiting beliefs that have plagued me in some cases for decades. Oh, I cannot begin to tell you how hard it has been to face my demons, my fears and my flaws. However, in the end there’s nothing like working through the emotions and forgiving myself and others, when necessary. Because on the other side is an authentic life.
  • I am a happier, more lighthearted person without alcohol. For years, an inwardly cheer-lacking me (although outwardly I pretended to be happy) pined to live a life that sparked joy– and now I’m getting there.
  • There is so much power, and I mean double-dog power, in surrounding ourselves with positive, supportive, non-judgmental people. My tribe in One Year No Beer is solid gold.

On top of all this I sleep soooooo much better. And speaking of sleep, it’s late as I type these words. Time for me to hit the hay and thank my lucky stars that I…Am…On…Day…260…Booze…Free.

I feel grateful. I feel unstoppable. I feel fully present.

Cheers and love,

Kathleen

Well, I just wrote a whiz-bang blog post for today and then accidentally deleted it.So here I am back again. Determined to write something to commemorate my milestone of life without the booze for 260 whole days.

 

This is big news to me.

 

I used to drink often. And maybe sometimes (okay, a lot of times) I drank too much.

One day, many years ago, a little voice in my ear said to me, “Stop drinking and your life will get better.” But I didn’t want to stop because most of my socializing and my friends revolved around imbibing. And I loved the escape of the buzz.

However, that pesky voice never stopped whispering year after year. There came a point that the whisper became a persistent shout. It took me over and I wanted to see if that dang voice had any merit to it.

Fast forward to today. I could write volumes about how my life has changed for the better now that booze is no longer in the picture.

Here’s what I now know:

  • Not drinking has allowed me to carefully uncover deep-seeded negative and limiting beliefs that have plagued me in some cases for decades. Oh, I cannot begin to tell you how hard it has been to face my demons, my fears and my flaws. However, in the end there’s nothing like working through the emotions and forgiving myself and others, when necessary. Because on the other side is an authentic life.
  • I am a happier, more lighthearted person without alcohol. For years, an inwardly cheer-lacking me (although outwardly I pretended to be happy) pined to live a life that sparked joy– and now I’m getting there.
  • There is so much power, and I mean double-dog power, in surrounding ourselves with positive, supportive, non-judgmental people. My tribe in One Year No Beer is solid gold.

On top of all this I sleep soooooo much better. And speaking of sleep, it’s late as I type these words. Time for me to hit the hay and thank my lucky stars that I…Am…On…Day…260…Booze…Free.

I feel grateful. I feel unstoppable. I feel fully present.

Cheers and love,

Kathleen

 

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